Blackbird singing in the dead of night. Take these broken wings and learn to fly…
2017 turned out to be an eventful year for many. Profound and full of paradoxes you could say. It stretched me from dark to light. Woke me up out of an illusion. Illusions are just that until someone shines the way in front of you, and suddenly, your perception changes as reality becomes clear as day. This wee awakening did help me put on my big girl pants, and for that I am grateful.🙏🏻
One of the great problems with ‘adulting’ as a human being is that we are far too good at it! The big choices you make such as do I stay in my corporate career? Should I marry or divorce? Do we buy/sell/renovate the house? are necessary. However, we take these things very seriously when in actual fact we should be sweating the small stuff!
The height of your own personal success lies in the much finer, subtle daily decisions. Such as, do you share your wisdom with others or your pain? Do you say what you mean and mean what you say? And how do you choose to talk to yourself? Is your inner vocabularly so toxic that the vibration of your thoughts pollutes the air when you enter a room?
In other words, being honest with your soul goes way further than consuming green juice and organic food. If making an untrue choice contorts your energy field it doesn’t matter how much bird seed you eat. Your body keeps the score and will let you know eventually.
For me, it was a year of teeny tiny choices that added up to some very big lessons. I saw with great clarity how I wasn’t choosing to be my true self. I witnessed my own ego throw off excuses, fears and denials. I learnt much, struggled much and said bye bye to much!
I witnessed friends, family and yogis struggle with their own choices. To the point of breaking both physically, mentally and spiritually. Much to everyone’s surprise. Including their own and mine. How very human of us! Why can’t we simply make calm emotional choices in good time and avoid the drama of a breakdown?
What I have realised is that a rock bottom, whilst hugely inconvenient, is really just a smoke signal that our daily choices need to change. It illuminates a path. A new path which turns out to be a blessing not a crisis. A crisis implies that you have gone crazy. But you were crazy already! Reaching the end of yourself simply means the healing can finally begin. What a relief!
On reflection, let us then consider that a break down is actually a break in. It is a very persistent knock on your heart-door to enter inside and be more authentic. To be your own best friend. To not live in the past but be more present. To not waste a moment on others expectations. And to be aware that you are only on this planet spinning in space for 100 years if you are extremely lucky.
So ask the Universe/Guru/God/Source these questions…
What would you have me do?
What would you have me say?
Who would you have me meet?
Practice sitting in silence and listening for guidance on the next right thing to do. Because it’s in the little choices such as…choosing ‘no’ and creating some necessary boundaries with your boss, or…choosing ‘yes’ to helping a friend that makes you feel good to be around.
For me the lesson was to not turn my back on pain. Ignoring, escaping, distracting and numbing yourself are all ego tactics that swim in fear which actually increase your suffering. Choosing to sit in discomfort is well, uncomfortable to say the least however it happens to be the ultimate act of self-compassion. And in that daily choice lies the power.
It is my deepest wish for you that you can choose more moments of self compassion and fully step into a whole and healthy balanced life on and off the yoga mat.
Here’s to empowering small stuff in 2018.
All your life. You were only waiting for this moment to arise. 😘